Life Process List

My Life Process List is the list things I want to do with myself. Hobbies, activities, projects, anything. And what my plan is, is to put down everything I want to do and want to be, and then some how step back and look at the pieces and see how they fit. What doesnt fit. Where and when can I move my pieces. But if I cant see it in front of me, shit like that wont happen. So I'm hoping that maybe if I make an electronic filing system of all my rambling bipolar lists and ideas. SO thank you (originally I was saying fuck you but quickly remembered that being bipolar is not being cursed and in essence is a gift), as I was saying thank you bipolar for filling my mind with all these beautiful ideas. Thank you for helping me buy a house in under 4 months. Thank you for taking me to 5 colleges but leaving me with no degrees. Thank you for starting 2 businesses at once. The woes and lows of bipolar arent shit in comparison to what I have to offer. And thats the point, I have something to offer but what is it? How can I get it across to people? What do I want them to see me as and see me for? Do I even care about people? I guess I'm 26 and trying to find my meaning of life right now. I'm going to make my plan and hopefully live by and stick to it. Right now I've no direction. What I thought was important no longer is. What to do what to do.

Thankfully recently I made a short list of these "things to do" a list of projects so to speak.

Installation art - I've always loved working with my hands, I liked putting together found objects when I was younger and its something that I'd like to really get my hands dirty with as an adult. Why is this important to me and what purpose will it serve you ask? I have emotions, feelings, I have shit that goes on down inside that I can't speak about. There are ugly things I think about, horrors that I envision. But I find it all to be beautiful, and I want other people to see it as beautiful. I dont want to explain my bipolar, I want to show it to you, and you feel it, and then you will know. Thats what I want to do. I dont want you to ask me if I am depressed, I need to manifest a piece dripping with melancholy that depression hangs in the air. Now are you getting where I'm going with this?

Gallery- I would love to put my work into a gallery one day. Photography, sculpting, painting, Im the Jill of all Trades, Master of None.

Crafting- What the hell does this mean lol! I dont know but I want to do it. I ducttaped my coffee table and put an acrylic sheet over it. I guess I mean shit like that. I want to decoupage a room full of furniture. I want to make my own pieces of nifty furniture and decorate it through out the house! Hey I'm only being honest! Thats what I dream about doing. I want my comfy cozy eco bohemian home that I decorated with my bare hands.(Making cabinet knobs for example) I want to have had a hand in all things aesthetic associated with the home. Me and my big green home, with hanging plants and ivy vines hanging around the room. piles of books placed aimlessly. Shelves covered with trinkets.
I LOVE TRINKETS!! (This goes back to installation art, being made with found objects, but also small sculptures with my trinkets. This I will call crafting. Art has more emotion behind it, crafting is made to be pretty!) GAY ASS ME lol

Interior Decorating- this comes into play with crafting though. I want to craft with large pieces, furniture therefore I'm already taking a step into interior decorating. If I make the furniture I think its only right I choose the color for the walls. BOOM! I've already got a theme and a mood in place, the rest I can leave up to my bohemian imagination. The giant BOHO in me wants to make a big beautiful boho home! I want to skip ahead and get into that but I'm going to wait.

Traveling- Theres not much to add to this I just want to travel. I want to live in Puerto Rico for at least a month. I want to take an art class in Europe. I want to volunteer at a wildlife preserve in Africa. I guess thats another  3 things to add to the bucket list.
PuertoRico because a quarter of the blood that runs through my veins derived from the soil from there. Thats one place NEXT TO AFRICA OF COURSE, that I can find some family outside of the states. I've never met that family but I feel an inland connection and I want to explore it.
Europe because of the antiquity and food. 'tis all.

Homeschooling- This is actually one of the many things that I've started doing and have been following through pretty well with.  I love it so far. It can be frustrating, there are good and bad days. I like being my childs sole educator!

Jewelry Making - Group this with crafting. I've never done it, I dont know how to do it but its something thats interested the shit out of me for so long. I want to make acrylic pieces, I want the privilege of arranging the jewels and beads and letting them hang how I want them to. I feel as if the hard part has been done, creating the jewels, and its my job to do them real justice. I personally don't like to wear jewelry but I find the pieces to be so intricate. Maybe even mimic Egyptian patterns. WHO KNOWS! Thats where my mind goes and how it goes. Watch it ladies and gentlemen and learn lol.

Sculpting- see how all this shit has to do with using my hands and creating something. I wrote this down but I'm thinking maybe I just want to focus on the whole founded art installation. But then again I am going to want to sculpt my own pieces so thats where this topic comes handy. Pottery is grouped under this as well. Thats all sculpting to me.

Own a Botanica/Health Store/Vegan Store/Cafe - Yup thats what it is. I want bags and jars of grains, rices, preserves, a garden of herbs used for cooking and for the craft (yes I mean witch craft, which will remind me of another thing on my to do list, To be come a High Priestess ) Tea leaves kept out for customers to brew their own tea. Fresh coffee and vegan pastries. I want it all. A cute little quaint shop. Jars of spices and maybe even a small stage for people to perform some spoken word. A bulletin board by the front to post upcoming events from bands and galleries. Possibly even a gallery day. or people can rent the space and use it as a gallery.

TheHomoHitcher - Which is my already business I have going that I haven't done anything with since late last year. I want to put life into my baby because it is a flourishing idea and business waiting to have as well as Petite Weddings.

PetiteWeddings- A company that will rise from the Homo Hitcher in the future.

Degrees - Associates at least because I've enough for a fucking Bachelors.

Education- Self taught is the best way for people like to me learn. I want to be self taught in all my skills. To excel and master without having gone to school. TO simply teach myself. Instead of waiting4+then 2+then 3+years just to maybe get my feet wet and then get a career. High hopes for myself but I've always been that way.

Rally- LGBT, or Marijuana rally. Either way I'm fighting for the cause!


Thats the list!!!! There are a few things here and there that I can add but the idea of doing ALL these things goes through my head on a daily basis. But I never know where to start.

Today I start...