Tarea aka Homework Time for me. So whats the point of me delving into my own process list process and try to come through it if I dont have a game plan? So homework is the best thing for me. I need to give myself a list of things I Need to do.(See how the list thing can go on and on). This is whats going to happen, I'm going to make a list of things I need to do, then I will make a list of when, and how , and etc... It will go on and on like that until its perfect and THEN I can start. My other problem, I dont like being stagnant, THe minute I get that way I can't get out of it. So I need to keep moving. So here goes lets see what my TareaTime List will take me....
Well the first thing I was able to do and get out the way is getting to blogging, if I can keep this up...who knows.
Saving- I have saved 0 dollars and that needs to change so my goal is after my bills are paid up (which won't take long, I'm good like that) I need to seriously start saving. Just got to do it and got to start now.
House Fix ups- There are things that need to be done in this god forsaken house. A new door. 2 running toilets. Broken window pane. Thats what I'm looking to save up to do within the next few months. I need to put a real date on that. I guess goal #1 is fixing the running toilets.
Hobbies- I need to do something to keep myself busy. And the best bet is my camera. I miss photography and capturing the moments. I'm good at it so do it. What am I waiting for? I'm always waiting. I can pick up the camera and take it out with me today when I go on a nature walk with my son. (Homeschooling- Science)
Projects- I've a project that I was in the middle of doing that I need to finish. I was reupholstering my papasan couch and I havent touched it in weeks after I re-stuffed it. I need to get more duct tape, maybe a solid color instead this time, at least 5 rolls I'm guessing. Thats the first step, I can worry about the 2nd step later.
House Decor- getting the downstairs in top top shape is not my main concern right now. There are a few projects I want to partake in my apartment first. Which brings about the idea and project I have for the house in that sense(must add to other blog). In a nutshell my dream is the downstairs to be rented to one family , and my upstairs apartment rented out to 3 - 4 individuals in each room. Singles of course. Dorm style with a main renter in charge on the lease.
With that being my dream I still want to do something with the upstairs apartment in making it unique. I want to buy random paint for the rooms. And then paint them. Then start to decorate and put things up on the walls. MY CRAFTS and trinkets!
Business "Homo Hitcher" - I can't leave my pet baby project out there on the back burner at all. It'd be wrong. So I need to breathe life into my baby and lift her up off the floor because she could really become something, IMPORTANT and SPECIAL. What to do with my business though is up to me. I need to read up on all the places around me that accept gay marriage, and etc... the tri state area. I need to work on a new gimmick. When will I figure that out? That can be my other home work I suppose... *What will my next approach to the public be? *What am I still offering, what am I not offering? *Services and prices. *Souvenirs *Book [NEED A BLOG FOR THIS TO SORT THROUGH OUT ALL MY THOUGHTS]
So far what is on the list of things for me to do right now: (I've decided to make a group of things I want and need to do, take one thing from each list and focus on that)
*save money for plumber*
*continue blogging*
*buy 4 rolls of duct tape*
*zipper for papasan*
*business*
I'm getting a little bit of money here and there and those things cost so as soon as I buy those things, the next set of steps will be on the list. After saving money for a plumber I can finally get his ass over here and handle these loud runny toilets. I will continue to blog because so far I really like the way it makes me feel. I can talk and talk and I dont have to worry if anyone is listening because if you're reading you're listening. The day I buy the rolls of duct tape I am going to do the papasan and the same day give the cushion and zipper to my bff so she an sew the zipper on there. I have the material so soon after I need to cover it. None of these things cost much but what will keep me from obtaining them. What I need to do in regards to my business, thats another story. Thats something that I'm going to need to delegate
The next thing my dinero needs to go to is duct tape , zipper, and a plumber. Tis all! Then I will focus on my next steps.
So now that I've gotten all of that out of the way my homework is pretty simple. I also threw in some photography that I'd forgetten to mention. In the process of all this writing I got my camera, got my battery charging, need to get to it now.
Photography + Blogging
Duct tape, plumber
Makes things easy when you put it like that.
Shit but now what.. I have to wait to get money for duct tape so I'm here with just blogging and photography. Camera still isnt charged! No photography yet. How much blogging can I do! A lot I think! Ha I need more projects that DONT COST MONEY lol! Free projects or Ashley.
*I need a free project thats productive for my business or for the house and I need a free project that is a personal project for me.
Thursday, January 31, 2013
Wednesday, January 30, 2013
Life Process List
My Life Process List is the list things I want to do with myself. Hobbies, activities, projects, anything. And what my plan is, is to put down everything I want to do and want to be, and then some how step back and look at the pieces and see how they fit. What doesnt fit. Where and when can I move my pieces. But if I cant see it in front of me, shit like that wont happen. So I'm hoping that maybe if I make an electronic filing system of all my rambling bipolar lists and ideas. SO thank you (originally I was saying fuck you but quickly remembered that being bipolar is not being cursed and in essence is a gift), as I was saying thank you bipolar for filling my mind with all these beautiful ideas. Thank you for helping me buy a house in under 4 months. Thank you for taking me to 5 colleges but leaving me with no degrees. Thank you for starting 2 businesses at once. The woes and lows of bipolar arent shit in comparison to what I have to offer. And thats the point, I have something to offer but what is it? How can I get it across to people? What do I want them to see me as and see me for? Do I even care about people? I guess I'm 26 and trying to find my meaning of life right now. I'm going to make my plan and hopefully live by and stick to it. Right now I've no direction. What I thought was important no longer is. What to do what to do.
Thankfully recently I made a short list of these "things to do" a list of projects so to speak.
Installation art - I've always loved working with my hands, I liked putting together found objects when I was younger and its something that I'd like to really get my hands dirty with as an adult. Why is this important to me and what purpose will it serve you ask? I have emotions, feelings, I have shit that goes on down inside that I can't speak about. There are ugly things I think about, horrors that I envision. But I find it all to be beautiful, and I want other people to see it as beautiful. I dont want to explain my bipolar, I want to show it to you, and you feel it, and then you will know. Thats what I want to do. I dont want you to ask me if I am depressed, I need to manifest a piece dripping with melancholy that depression hangs in the air. Now are you getting where I'm going with this?
Gallery- I would love to put my work into a gallery one day. Photography, sculpting, painting, Im the Jill of all Trades, Master of None.
Crafting- What the hell does this mean lol! I dont know but I want to do it. I ducttaped my coffee table and put an acrylic sheet over it. I guess I mean shit like that. I want to decoupage a room full of furniture. I want to make my own pieces of nifty furniture and decorate it through out the house! Hey I'm only being honest! Thats what I dream about doing. I want my comfy cozy eco bohemian home that I decorated with my bare hands.(Making cabinet knobs for example) I want to have had a hand in all things aesthetic associated with the home. Me and my big green home, with hanging plants and ivy vines hanging around the room. piles of books placed aimlessly. Shelves covered with trinkets.
I LOVE TRINKETS!! (This goes back to installation art, being made with found objects, but also small sculptures with my trinkets. This I will call crafting. Art has more emotion behind it, crafting is made to be pretty!) GAY ASS ME lol
Interior Decorating- this comes into play with crafting though. I want to craft with large pieces, furniture therefore I'm already taking a step into interior decorating. If I make the furniture I think its only right I choose the color for the walls. BOOM! I've already got a theme and a mood in place, the rest I can leave up to my bohemian imagination. The giant BOHO in me wants to make a big beautiful boho home! I want to skip ahead and get into that but I'm going to wait.
Traveling- Theres not much to add to this I just want to travel. I want to live in Puerto Rico for at least a month. I want to take an art class in Europe. I want to volunteer at a wildlife preserve in Africa. I guess thats another 3 things to add to the bucket list.
PuertoRico because a quarter of the blood that runs through my veins derived from the soil from there. Thats one place NEXT TO AFRICA OF COURSE, that I can find some family outside of the states. I've never met that family but I feel an inland connection and I want to explore it.
Europe because of the antiquity and food. 'tis all.
Homeschooling- This is actually one of the many things that I've started doing and have been following through pretty well with. I love it so far. It can be frustrating, there are good and bad days. I like being my childs sole educator!
Jewelry Making - Group this with crafting. I've never done it, I dont know how to do it but its something thats interested the shit out of me for so long. I want to make acrylic pieces, I want the privilege of arranging the jewels and beads and letting them hang how I want them to. I feel as if the hard part has been done, creating the jewels, and its my job to do them real justice. I personally don't like to wear jewelry but I find the pieces to be so intricate. Maybe even mimic Egyptian patterns. WHO KNOWS! Thats where my mind goes and how it goes. Watch it ladies and gentlemen and learn lol.
Sculpting- see how all this shit has to do with using my hands and creating something. I wrote this down but I'm thinking maybe I just want to focus on the whole founded art installation. But then again I am going to want to sculpt my own pieces so thats where this topic comes handy. Pottery is grouped under this as well. Thats all sculpting to me.
Own a Botanica/Health Store/Vegan Store/Cafe - Yup thats what it is. I want bags and jars of grains, rices, preserves, a garden of herbs used for cooking and for the craft (yes I mean witch craft, which will remind me of another thing on my to do list, To be come a High Priestess ) Tea leaves kept out for customers to brew their own tea. Fresh coffee and vegan pastries. I want it all. A cute little quaint shop. Jars of spices and maybe even a small stage for people to perform some spoken word. A bulletin board by the front to post upcoming events from bands and galleries. Possibly even a gallery day. or people can rent the space and use it as a gallery.
TheHomoHitcher - Which is my already business I have going that I haven't done anything with since late last year. I want to put life into my baby because it is a flourishing idea and business waiting to have as well as Petite Weddings.
PetiteWeddings- A company that will rise from the Homo Hitcher in the future.
Degrees - Associates at least because I've enough for a fucking Bachelors.
Education- Self taught is the best way for people like to me learn. I want to be self taught in all my skills. To excel and master without having gone to school. TO simply teach myself. Instead of waiting4+then 2+then 3+years just to maybe get my feet wet and then get a career. High hopes for myself but I've always been that way.
Rally- LGBT, or Marijuana rally. Either way I'm fighting for the cause!
Thats the list!!!! There are a few things here and there that I can add but the idea of doing ALL these things goes through my head on a daily basis. But I never know where to start.
Today I start...
Thankfully recently I made a short list of these "things to do" a list of projects so to speak.
Installation art - I've always loved working with my hands, I liked putting together found objects when I was younger and its something that I'd like to really get my hands dirty with as an adult. Why is this important to me and what purpose will it serve you ask? I have emotions, feelings, I have shit that goes on down inside that I can't speak about. There are ugly things I think about, horrors that I envision. But I find it all to be beautiful, and I want other people to see it as beautiful. I dont want to explain my bipolar, I want to show it to you, and you feel it, and then you will know. Thats what I want to do. I dont want you to ask me if I am depressed, I need to manifest a piece dripping with melancholy that depression hangs in the air. Now are you getting where I'm going with this?
Gallery- I would love to put my work into a gallery one day. Photography, sculpting, painting, Im the Jill of all Trades, Master of None.
Crafting- What the hell does this mean lol! I dont know but I want to do it. I ducttaped my coffee table and put an acrylic sheet over it. I guess I mean shit like that. I want to decoupage a room full of furniture. I want to make my own pieces of nifty furniture and decorate it through out the house! Hey I'm only being honest! Thats what I dream about doing. I want my comfy cozy eco bohemian home that I decorated with my bare hands.(Making cabinet knobs for example) I want to have had a hand in all things aesthetic associated with the home. Me and my big green home, with hanging plants and ivy vines hanging around the room. piles of books placed aimlessly. Shelves covered with trinkets.
I LOVE TRINKETS!! (This goes back to installation art, being made with found objects, but also small sculptures with my trinkets. This I will call crafting. Art has more emotion behind it, crafting is made to be pretty!) GAY ASS ME lol
Interior Decorating- this comes into play with crafting though. I want to craft with large pieces, furniture therefore I'm already taking a step into interior decorating. If I make the furniture I think its only right I choose the color for the walls. BOOM! I've already got a theme and a mood in place, the rest I can leave up to my bohemian imagination. The giant BOHO in me wants to make a big beautiful boho home! I want to skip ahead and get into that but I'm going to wait.
Traveling- Theres not much to add to this I just want to travel. I want to live in Puerto Rico for at least a month. I want to take an art class in Europe. I want to volunteer at a wildlife preserve in Africa. I guess thats another 3 things to add to the bucket list.
PuertoRico because a quarter of the blood that runs through my veins derived from the soil from there. Thats one place NEXT TO AFRICA OF COURSE, that I can find some family outside of the states. I've never met that family but I feel an inland connection and I want to explore it.
Europe because of the antiquity and food. 'tis all.
Homeschooling- This is actually one of the many things that I've started doing and have been following through pretty well with. I love it so far. It can be frustrating, there are good and bad days. I like being my childs sole educator!
Jewelry Making - Group this with crafting. I've never done it, I dont know how to do it but its something thats interested the shit out of me for so long. I want to make acrylic pieces, I want the privilege of arranging the jewels and beads and letting them hang how I want them to. I feel as if the hard part has been done, creating the jewels, and its my job to do them real justice. I personally don't like to wear jewelry but I find the pieces to be so intricate. Maybe even mimic Egyptian patterns. WHO KNOWS! Thats where my mind goes and how it goes. Watch it ladies and gentlemen and learn lol.
Sculpting- see how all this shit has to do with using my hands and creating something. I wrote this down but I'm thinking maybe I just want to focus on the whole founded art installation. But then again I am going to want to sculpt my own pieces so thats where this topic comes handy. Pottery is grouped under this as well. Thats all sculpting to me.
Own a Botanica/Health Store/Vegan Store/Cafe - Yup thats what it is. I want bags and jars of grains, rices, preserves, a garden of herbs used for cooking and for the craft (yes I mean witch craft, which will remind me of another thing on my to do list, To be come a High Priestess ) Tea leaves kept out for customers to brew their own tea. Fresh coffee and vegan pastries. I want it all. A cute little quaint shop. Jars of spices and maybe even a small stage for people to perform some spoken word. A bulletin board by the front to post upcoming events from bands and galleries. Possibly even a gallery day. or people can rent the space and use it as a gallery.
TheHomoHitcher - Which is my already business I have going that I haven't done anything with since late last year. I want to put life into my baby because it is a flourishing idea and business waiting to have as well as Petite Weddings.
PetiteWeddings- A company that will rise from the Homo Hitcher in the future.
Degrees - Associates at least because I've enough for a fucking Bachelors.
Education- Self taught is the best way for people like to me learn. I want to be self taught in all my skills. To excel and master without having gone to school. TO simply teach myself. Instead of waiting4+then 2+then 3+years just to maybe get my feet wet and then get a career. High hopes for myself but I've always been that way.
Rally- LGBT, or Marijuana rally. Either way I'm fighting for the cause!
Thats the list!!!! There are a few things here and there that I can add but the idea of doing ALL these things goes through my head on a daily basis. But I never know where to start.
Today I start...
Procrastination in 2013
It is known that I procrastinate and that it takes me forever to get things done. Thats just me and I've always been like that, rather slow. I get shit done, and I do it right but I do it at my own pace.
But now I'm 26, a year after my rebirth and I feel like things need to get done and this procrastination thing has got to go.
The thing is, when I get the procrastinting out of the way what will really be left for me to do? Since now I'm forced to sit and think and do...and what to do? Well thats not hard to answer
I have soooooooooooo many things that I want to do, projects that I want to start, classes to take, businesses to open. WTF?? Whys that? WHy so many ideas and no follow through? Last year I would have told you I have no idea why, but now I can say its honestly because I'm bipolar and well, ideas like to go in and out of our heads quite often. The nature of the beast.
So I'll take this blog as my documented journey to me following through with what were once the ramblings of a bipolar and are now concrete ideas that I want to bring to fruition.
I've too many ideas, and I've enough time so why not start making things happen?
So many questions come to mind first though?
What are all the things I want to do with my life? What do I want to be remembered for? What will make me happy? What is something simple that makes me happy? How will I sustain a healthy life? Will I be able to sustain a stable life financially?
These are all the new questions that pop into my head when I think about myself, my journey and my future. THat is what this is from here on out, my journey.
I haven't started living.
In my opinion.
And that all needs to change.
So since this is the year of organizing and getting my shit together I need to first make a list of everything that I want to do. And I don't know if people even get me when I say I'm making a list of things I want to do with myself. Its literally a list of the activities and projects I want to have completed in my life. My official process list that I've made is for me, about me ,and in an essence what I want me to be. I will think of it as my Manifest Destiny that I can't go anywhere with out.
Either way this year is the year, I let myself be 25 but it was 26 I was trying to get to, I feel like its my 1st birthday all over again. Life just restarted for me and I'm trying to take advantage of it all the fucking ways I can.
But now I'm 26, a year after my rebirth and I feel like things need to get done and this procrastination thing has got to go.
The thing is, when I get the procrastinting out of the way what will really be left for me to do? Since now I'm forced to sit and think and do...and what to do? Well thats not hard to answer
I have soooooooooooo many things that I want to do, projects that I want to start, classes to take, businesses to open. WTF?? Whys that? WHy so many ideas and no follow through? Last year I would have told you I have no idea why, but now I can say its honestly because I'm bipolar and well, ideas like to go in and out of our heads quite often. The nature of the beast.
So I'll take this blog as my documented journey to me following through with what were once the ramblings of a bipolar and are now concrete ideas that I want to bring to fruition.
I've too many ideas, and I've enough time so why not start making things happen?
So many questions come to mind first though?
What are all the things I want to do with my life? What do I want to be remembered for? What will make me happy? What is something simple that makes me happy? How will I sustain a healthy life? Will I be able to sustain a stable life financially?
These are all the new questions that pop into my head when I think about myself, my journey and my future. THat is what this is from here on out, my journey.
I haven't started living.
In my opinion.
And that all needs to change.
So since this is the year of organizing and getting my shit together I need to first make a list of everything that I want to do. And I don't know if people even get me when I say I'm making a list of things I want to do with myself. Its literally a list of the activities and projects I want to have completed in my life. My official process list that I've made is for me, about me ,and in an essence what I want me to be. I will think of it as my Manifest Destiny that I can't go anywhere with out.
Either way this year is the year, I let myself be 25 but it was 26 I was trying to get to, I feel like its my 1st birthday all over again. Life just restarted for me and I'm trying to take advantage of it all the fucking ways I can.
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