Disturbing Movies List
Slaughtered Vomit Dolls
August Underground Mordum
Serbian Film
120 Days of Sodom
Seed
Blindness
Salo
3 Extremes
I Saw The Devil
AfterMath
Goodbye Uncle Tom
Singapore Sling
Mermaid in a Manhole
The Devil Inside Me
Irreversible
Melancholie der Engel
Inside/À l'Intérieur
Happiness
Happy Games
Taxidermia
Henry Portrait of a Serial Killer
In a Glass Cage
Imprint
Angst
The Skin I Live In***
Threads
Pink Flamingos
Antichrist
Gurotesuku
Nekromantik
eraserhead
dogtooth
Bad Boy Bubby
I Saw the devil
Gozu
Ichi The Killer
Marebito
Testuo***- Japanese film man turning into a machine. 2 rival metal men.
A Serbian Film
Guinea Pig: Flower of Flesh and Blood
964 pinocchio
ID (japan)
The Lost
Deadgirl
Cannibal Holocaust
Men Behind The Sun
Tuesday, April 29, 2014
Saturday, December 7, 2013
My Breakdown was not that of the mind
i am now learning that my breakdown was not one of the mind
i was shedding the weight of the years in disillusion
removing from myself the lies that had ridden my skin
permeating a truth in my core i was erupting from a dark abyss
no flashlight but as i activate my light i regenerate and see
pineal waves eb and flow to visual tantras as i see for the first time
and orgasm through my minds eye a 5th dimensional utopia
i was shedding the weight of the years in disillusion
removing from myself the lies that had ridden my skin
permeating a truth in my core i was erupting from a dark abyss
no flashlight but as i activate my light i regenerate and see
pineal waves eb and flow to visual tantras as i see for the first time
and orgasm through my minds eye a 5th dimensional utopia
Tuesday, November 19, 2013
Book 1- Shamballah and Aghaarta
The first book that I completed was Shamaballah and Aghaarta by Dr Malachi York. I decided to purchase several of his books because I was roommates with one of his children and I have always been very interested in his philosophies and beliefs. Especially since my roommate was a very intriguing purpose. Well now, several years later I find myself with many of his books in my digital library and I feel compelled to read his works.
Shamballah and Aghaarta was the first book of his to complete and it was definitely mind blowing. I try not to put too much faith in anything that I read and keep an objective mind, but the imagery that I give these stories fiction, or non fiction is so real that I cannot help but wonder. What if....What if....
Inner cities, extra-terrestials, inter-terrestials, humaniods, and demented robots. Those are just a few of the characters in his non fiction, factual telling of the inner workings of our inner world that we know nothing about. His book derives from the hollow earth theory, which is exactly how it sounds. The earth is not a iron ball, surrounded by magma, enclosed in a crust. There are theorists that believe our earth is actually hollow on the inside with a central black sun. Creatures roam, live, dominate, and even come up to our world, in this subterranean plane.
Multiple breeds of alines, alien planets, death rays, it is quite a bit to take in but I'm down and open for whatever. I have no idea about shit when it comes to this world or this earth. I know that I am being lied to so to what extent have I been lied to. I will follow along with any theory for a bit, because another perspective to an idea that you are not that familiar with will incite a need for knowledge on the subject, and researching of facts. Which always incites a need for more. At least in me. No wonder it takes me forever to get through books, I spend over half my time researching up any facts or semi facts the author tries to dish out.
It makes for interesting conversation though :)
While reading the book I would continuously research any places mentioned, or new alien race mentioned. Even searched youtube and found some videos. Got to love the net! So much information at your fingertips that there is NO reason to be uninformed.
This book has definitely opened my eyes more to the Hollow Earth theory, luckily I have a book or two in regards to this subject in my library. So I wont be at such a loss when I crack open that one.
Shamballah and Aghaarta was the first book of his to complete and it was definitely mind blowing. I try not to put too much faith in anything that I read and keep an objective mind, but the imagery that I give these stories fiction, or non fiction is so real that I cannot help but wonder. What if....What if....
Inner cities, extra-terrestials, inter-terrestials, humaniods, and demented robots. Those are just a few of the characters in his non fiction, factual telling of the inner workings of our inner world that we know nothing about. His book derives from the hollow earth theory, which is exactly how it sounds. The earth is not a iron ball, surrounded by magma, enclosed in a crust. There are theorists that believe our earth is actually hollow on the inside with a central black sun. Creatures roam, live, dominate, and even come up to our world, in this subterranean plane.
Multiple breeds of alines, alien planets, death rays, it is quite a bit to take in but I'm down and open for whatever. I have no idea about shit when it comes to this world or this earth. I know that I am being lied to so to what extent have I been lied to. I will follow along with any theory for a bit, because another perspective to an idea that you are not that familiar with will incite a need for knowledge on the subject, and researching of facts. Which always incites a need for more. At least in me. No wonder it takes me forever to get through books, I spend over half my time researching up any facts or semi facts the author tries to dish out.
It makes for interesting conversation though :)
While reading the book I would continuously research any places mentioned, or new alien race mentioned. Even searched youtube and found some videos. Got to love the net! So much information at your fingertips that there is NO reason to be uninformed.
This book has definitely opened my eyes more to the Hollow Earth theory, luckily I have a book or two in regards to this subject in my library. So I wont be at such a loss when I crack open that one.
Sunday, November 17, 2013
Color does not matter?
Color does not matter
says the woman with the white skin
color does not matter
when the world is at your feet from your hue
color does not matter
when you fit the ideology
of beauty in perfection
for yes my love color does not matter
and it never will
color does not matter
because you not see the dark stains
that streak the faces of the ugly and forgotten
color does not matter
when people do not see your color
or see you as a human
color does not matter
because you are not compared to the likings of an ape
or other animal
color does not matter because your clear complexion
opens doors that you cannot even see
your color does not matter
when it is worshipped in abundance
for you color will never matter
for the dark side of the moon all i can see is my color
and the destruction and defamation that has gone along with it
across cultures and borders does my color matter
and make me a 3rd class citizen
across boundaries does my color matter
and deem me a mongrol or worse
across religions people have used
their holy books to justify
their cruel treatment given
to those that share this color that does not matter
color does not matter to those whom hear
beauitful pretty gorgeous exotic or worthy
color does not matter to those who can draw themselves
accurately with a crayola skintone color box
color does not matter when your skin that coats your body
is not deemed synonymous with dirt mud or feces
for you i can see why color does not matter
whenyou do not see color
you do not see my color
that is why my color does not matter
says the woman with the white skin
color does not matter
when the world is at your feet from your hue
color does not matter
when you fit the ideology
of beauty in perfection
for yes my love color does not matter
and it never will
color does not matter
because you not see the dark stains
that streak the faces of the ugly and forgotten
color does not matter
when people do not see your color
or see you as a human
color does not matter
because you are not compared to the likings of an ape
or other animal
color does not matter because your clear complexion
opens doors that you cannot even see
your color does not matter
when it is worshipped in abundance
for you color will never matter
for the dark side of the moon all i can see is my color
and the destruction and defamation that has gone along with it
across cultures and borders does my color matter
and make me a 3rd class citizen
across boundaries does my color matter
and deem me a mongrol or worse
across religions people have used
their holy books to justify
their cruel treatment given
to those that share this color that does not matter
color does not matter to those whom hear
beauitful pretty gorgeous exotic or worthy
color does not matter to those who can draw themselves
accurately with a crayola skintone color box
color does not matter when your skin that coats your body
is not deemed synonymous with dirt mud or feces
for you i can see why color does not matter
whenyou do not see color
you do not see my color
that is why my color does not matter
Book Challenge (Contiously Updated)
So I have found myself with over 550 books and I am not sure how I am going to read them all. Even though I know I want to!
A challenge ensues because I refuse to let all this downloading go to waste.
I am not sure how many books I can bust out in a week, a month, or year.
So a simple goal of 1 book a week is good, with only reading 3 at the same time.
After reading each book I want to write a short summary on the book, I take too much notes and as if I am re writing the book half of the time. So I am not going to take any notes maybe make small page notations but I will only allow myself to write a summary AFTER I am done reading.
My Current Reading List
I am skimming through The Divine Cosmos by David Wilcox but I am not sure if I want to delve into that subject of his. I am not sure where he is going with his writing and I don't want that to throw me off of anything that I am researching and reading now. But then again, most of what I am reading is all connected because it all has to do with history and religion and the many stories of creation so I am sure it will find a place to fit in amongst all my teachings!
I have started these in the past and never finished, time to open my mind and take in all this information and knowledge. I am not under the assumption that the only higher education you need is college, so therefore I am choosing to high my education and what better way to do that than with...BOOKS!
Books to Add
Bhagavada Gita
Upanishads
Forbidden Archeology
Mistborn Trilogy
Proof of Heaven- eben md alexander
Wheel of Time
A challenge ensues because I refuse to let all this downloading go to waste.
I am not sure how many books I can bust out in a week, a month, or year.
So a simple goal of 1 book a week is good, with only reading 3 at the same time.
After reading each book I want to write a short summary on the book, I take too much notes and as if I am re writing the book half of the time. So I am not going to take any notes maybe make small page notations but I will only allow myself to write a summary AFTER I am done reading.
My Current Reading List
- The Sirius Mystery. Reading pg 40
- Shamballah and Aghaarta. Finished. Reviewed.
- Awakening the Natural Genius of Black Children. Skimmed.
- The Melan-ite Children. Reading pg 92.
- Love Is the Way to Ascend. Reading pg 22.
- The Divine Cosmos. Skimmed.
I am skimming through The Divine Cosmos by David Wilcox but I am not sure if I want to delve into that subject of his. I am not sure where he is going with his writing and I don't want that to throw me off of anything that I am researching and reading now. But then again, most of what I am reading is all connected because it all has to do with history and religion and the many stories of creation so I am sure it will find a place to fit in amongst all my teachings!
I have started these in the past and never finished, time to open my mind and take in all this information and knowledge. I am not under the assumption that the only higher education you need is college, so therefore I am choosing to high my education and what better way to do that than with...BOOKS!
Books to Add
Bhagavada Gita
Upanishads
Forbidden Archeology
Mistborn Trilogy
Proof of Heaven- eben md alexander
Wheel of Time
Narnia
From Dictatorship to Democracy
movies
The Last Mimzy
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